We are already living in the salvation the Lord has won for us, but not yet are we living in the
fullness of it. I am already claimed and given the identity as a daughter of the King, but not yet do I fully understand what the looks like in my life. I went into our Formation women’s retreat honestly not expecting to get anything out of it. It’s just another thing I have to do, something to check off my list of obligations. Not the best, mentality I know, but I’m just being honest here.
Thankfully the Lord knows just how to bring me back to the truth.
In the earlier part of the day we heard a talk and there were probably a lot of other great points but the one that utterly struck me was this idea of “already, but not yet.” It scared me. It made me think of the ways I wasn’t living up to the potential the Lord has filled me with. I could just hear the “but not yet” playing over and over again like a broken record. I went into my personal prayer already feeling helpless and upset at myself for all the ways I had been failing, specifically in my relationship with the Lord.
Do this. Do that. Be better. Serve more. Study more. Pray more. Sleep more. Give yourself more.
All the things.
But thankfully He knows how to bring me back to the truth in such a gentle way. After what
seemed like forever of hearing that record He came in and broke down those lies. I could hear
His voice just saying “because I love you.” As simple as that. Hope is not to be lost, in fact it’s
exciting to think that I’m continually being changed each and every day. Without the cross and
the suffering it comes with, we would not have the joy that comes with the resurrection. I am not
left in the suffering and despair; in fact there’s a lot of security in knowing that the Lord doesn’t
leave me in the “not yet.” I am not forgotten. I am not too lost. I am not defined by the
circumstances around me. There is so much potential to be found in the “not yet.”
I walked away with a sense of promise and reassurance that change will come day by day.
Matthew 6:25-27 brought me, and continues to, bring me out of that spirit of worry and into a
spirit of hope:
“Therefore I tell you, do not
worry about your life, what you will
eat or drink; or about your body,
what you will wear. Is not life more
than food, and the body more than
clothes? Look at the birds of the
air; they do not sow or reap or store
away in barns, and yet your heavenly
Father feeds them. Are you not much
more valuable than they? Can any
one of you by worrying add a single
hour to your life?
Classic move by God allowing me to receive such a powerful message when I went in expecting
nothing. Our God is faithful and desires the best for His children. I will no longer let myself fall
into the despair of “not yet.” I will live my life joyfully because who I am and who my Father is.
I live in the truth of the “already” and confidence that the Lord is changing me despite if I see it